Last few days my mood just like a roller coaster. I've got enormously glad, satisfied, relief with some seasoning of frustrating mental condition. I'm glad because I've bought a new modem. Satisfied because my national exam score isn't too bad, still can be tolerated. Relief because my responsibility for the search of ustadz was accomplished. And also I could participate in ODOJ (One Day One Juz), I've been read 18 juz so far.
Frustrating moment? I'm in really terrible financial condition right now. I want to buy road bike, dekstop pc, laptop, and many more. I was trying to hold my desire to buy some irritating useless stuff. But in many occasion I had to spend it or I won't survive. Sigh. I couldn't think well. I'm in a free condition despite preparing for the Ramadhan agenda.
But it's been so boring. I really want to work. At least I can get some money. Paying the internet connection is my main priority recently.
I can't believe just because my financial condition getting like this, it affecting so much aspect in my life. Physically and mentally.
Well... Then I search what money means. Googling for some quotes. Brainyquotes.com

 I'm kinda touched by Mark Twain's quote "Lack of money is the root of all evil". This really exact with my own experience. My friend just dragged to "the black business" as he grown til' now. He bet, cheat and many more things that he hasn't told me. To be honest, that is pathetic. I know it grants easy money. But it will make the other suffers. If not now, it will come after. The regret that will torture us for what we've done.