Well 2017 is not going so well for me. I recently literally running away from something that I should have done in January. Or even in December last year. I actually regret why I am not doing what I have to do as soon as possible. Because everytime I procastinate something bad always happen. The bad things come in the form of 'not doing anything'. Now I hate myself. But well, it happened and I should move on from it.

I've got many resolutions this year. One of it is reading books. Well, this reading resolution is still working till now :D At least I want to read 1 or 2 books every month. Retrieving my childhood hobby of reading, when I could finish a 400 pages of novel in 2 days. Haha. The first thought was reading 100 books in this year. But after January, I just realize that the time is not friendly enough and strangling me. Or you could say I can't move on from dota 2 and read(sad).

My dreams to build terrarium or my own eden garden is not fading away. I want to chase it back.

That's all



PS: I have fulfilled on of my resolution by reaching 3k MMR in DoTA 2. Still long way to go~

Well I guess along this holiday I will take some composition.
- Anime
- Movies
- Batman Arkham City
- Dota 2
- Vacation Trip
- Hangout w/ Friends & Family
- Do something productive
- Take my responsibility as a part of the community
I think that list still not complete yet as I still wondering what should I do with someone special. Haha. JK.
Actually I still wanted to get a new bike and go out with my new cycling neighborhood community. But yeah, I still have to do some productive work to earn money as soon as possible. Considering my 20s has come. Lol.

Enjoy your holiday whoever and whenever you are!

     Yo. This time early February, I wanna share about my recent life. I just visited my high school teacher and I learned a lot in our conversation. Yeah, it's not about a light thing to discuss, but I really enjoy it. We talked about how the history that we've learn were not all absolutely true. About how the dogma of some religions were not to be truly trusted yet. It has many motivational message though. But now I feel really grateful because I ever had that talk. One thing to remember that, we need to be positive and focus on what we dream about. And also never give up about it. Haha.
     Go on another day, I just think about what kind of resolution that I'll make this year. I'm nearly 20 now and I think I shall take more responsibility upon my life. I want to be a person who people can depend on. I want them to trust me. I want to make them happy. Especially for those who I labeled as special. I won't mention who are they, but I know they already realize that I treasure them. And so the world taste more different. It's changing every time. Sometimes it's sour, sometimes it's really sweet. But what can I do just taste it, and try to handle the taste and not get driven too far into it. I just realize that 'control' is the main term of 'grown up'. I have to take control of every emotions that lies inside of me. That love, anger, sadness... Just keep it myself til' I can find someone that I can really trust. But in fact, it's really hard to put my trust in someone. They're just human. The one who I trust the most is only God.
I also met a friend who study far from home. He really got some guts about his life. He just already learned how really the world is. The world which the vice and the virtue live together in harmony. He always has story to share, a words to cheer up their friends who nearly lose hope of life. He just never give up. And also, know where he stands. He knows where his place, and knowing the consequences of what he has done. He truly aware of it. And you know what? What just cross my mind...is that I should know where I will stand in the current term, and aware that things will not be like what I expected..if I'm not starting to change..from now on.
By the way, I also got my own stories. Beach camp, SEF, vacation, but I don't think I will share that for now. I'll keep it for later. Haha. So, just follow your curiosity here.

Kali ini saya akan berbagi review tentang salah satu anime yang membuat penasaran dan bahkan menegangkan, Another. Another adalah sebuah novel tahun 2009 ditulis oleh pengarang Yukito Ayatsuji. Novel ini telah diadaptasi menjadi sebuah manga, sebuah anime dan sebuah film live-action.
Anime ini tayang pada Januari-Maret 2012 dengan 12 episode dan 1 OVA. Cerita ini berfokus pada sebuah SMP di Yomiyama yang memiliki sejarah kelam. 26 tahun yang lalu seorang murid bernama Yomiyama Misaki yang sangat pandai dalam pelajaran maupun olahraga meninggal saat kelas 3. Teman-temannya tetap menganggapnya masih hidup saat kelulusan. Sejak saat itulah selalu terjadi hal aneh pada bekas kelas yang ditinggalkannya, yaitu kelas 3-3.
Pada 1998, Sakakibara Kouichi, seorang murid laki-laki 15 tahun pindahan dari Tokyo pindah ke SMP Yomiyama itu. Ia pindah ke Yomiyama karena ayahnya sedang bekerja di India. Di Yomiyama Kouichi tinggal bersama kakek nenek dari ibunya dan tantenya yang bernama Reiko. Ibunya meninggal saat melahirkannya. Kemudian ia bertemu dengan gadis misterius bernama Misaki. Misaki mengenakan penutup mata di mata kirinya dan selalu dikucilkan. Teman-teman di sekolahnya bersikap aneh ada Misaki, yang membuat Kouichi penasaran dan membuatnya juga tertarik pada misteri 26 tahun yang lalu.
Penasaran? Silakan menyaksikannya secara streaming di http://www.animeultima.tv/watch/another-english-subbed-dubbed-online/ Bisa juga mendownloadnya dengan IDM.

Lebih lengkap tentang novelnya http://id.wikipedia.org/wiki/Another_(novel)
Lebih lengkap tentang live action http://another.wikia.com/wiki/Another_(Live_Action_Film)

Last few days my mood just like a roller coaster. I've got enormously glad, satisfied, relief with some seasoning of frustrating mental condition. I'm glad because I've bought a new modem. Satisfied because my national exam score isn't too bad, still can be tolerated. Relief because my responsibility for the search of ustadz was accomplished. And also I could participate in ODOJ (One Day One Juz), I've been read 18 juz so far.
Frustrating moment? I'm in really terrible financial condition right now. I want to buy road bike, dekstop pc, laptop, and many more. I was trying to hold my desire to buy some irritating useless stuff. But in many occasion I had to spend it or I won't survive. Sigh. I couldn't think well. I'm in a free condition despite preparing for the Ramadhan agenda.
But it's been so boring. I really want to work. At least I can get some money. Paying the internet connection is my main priority recently.
I can't believe just because my financial condition getting like this, it affecting so much aspect in my life. Physically and mentally.
Well... Then I search what money means. Googling for some quotes. Brainyquotes.com

 I'm kinda touched by Mark Twain's quote "Lack of money is the root of all evil". This really exact with my own experience. My friend just dragged to "the black business" as he grown til' now. He bet, cheat and many more things that he hasn't told me. To be honest, that is pathetic. I know it grants easy money. But it will make the other suffers. If not now, it will come after. The regret that will torture us for what we've done.